A Mother's Love
tfotorny | July 30, 2008 05:42
Recently I told someone that I love my daughter very much even though I don't know who she is yet. This person asked how I could love someone that I don't even know. At first I said that I just couldn't explain it. But I got to thinking about it and came up with this analogy. When I became pregnant with both my sons, I loved them before I even saw them, before I knew they were boys, and before I held them in my arms. I had a deep love for both children before I gave birth. Even though I won't be giving birth to my daughter, the principle is still the same. I don't know who she is yet, I haven't seen her yet, and I haven't held her in my arms yet -- but I love her very deeply. When I was pregnant with Erik, I wondered how I would ever love another child as much as I loved Michael. But God expanded my love. When we first started the adoption process, I wondered a little bit if I would be able to love her as much as I love both the boys. Again, God has multiplied my love. It's amazing how He does this. The mother bear instinct that I have with my boys has kicked in to include my daughter. I feel the need to protect her. Right now, I can only protect her by covering her in prayer. I look forward to the day I can hold her tightly in my arms and protect her as I do my boys. My dear friend gave me this Scripture to lean on during this time of waiting. It is Romans 8:25 which says "But if we hope (or look forward) to something we don't yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently."
No news yet
tfotorny | July 23, 2008 06:22
Well, no news yet. We're still looking and still waiting to hear information about the 30 or so children we are interested in. Some have been removed from the list so they have more than likely been adopted or at least placed in a pre-adoptive home.
{{{sigh}}} The waiting and not hearing any info is really frustrating. It's a true test of my patience. I'm trying very hard on the days when I'm discouraged to just trust in the Lord that He is taking care of the situation and He is working it out for us. I know His timing is best and that He has a particular girl set aside to be our daughter. Perhaps none of the girls we're waiting for information about are the "one" God has set aside for us. I just wish we would find her soon and bring her home to our family.
A long wait
tfotorny | July 02, 2008 11:40
We still haven't heard anything about the 25 or so children we inquired about in the last few weeks. A dear friend, and a wise Christian, recently told me that she was praying about our adoption process. She said that if we were trying to get pregnant, we'd have to wait nine months to get the baby. So it will be similar with the adoption. We will have to wait a little while to get her. The analogy to a pregnancy got me thinking about the fact that we haven't heard about any of the inquiries of the kids. Well, if we were trying to get pregnant, it would be several weeks before we would know if we were expecting. So it got me to thinking that it may be several weeks until we hear any info about the children we're interested in. For the most part, we are patiently waiting. But it is hard. Some days I struggle with being patient. I want to find my daughter, and bring her home to love. But I know all this will be in God's timing. In His time, He will give us our daughter. He will give us the daughter He wants us to have. She is out there waiting. God has her set aside, reserved for us. In His time, He will lead us to her. Please continue to pray with us and for us that God will lead us to our daughter. Please also pray for our future daughter -- that she will know we love her already and that the transition into our family will go well.